Episode 37: I Love You Too, Mom

August 7, 2021

Episode 37: I Love You Too, Mom

In podcast episode 37 titled “I Love You Too, Mom” based on the chapter with the same title in my memoir, Healing a Shattered Soul, you will hear me share how a few friends of mine receive messages from their loved ones, immensely warming my heart. Another caveat to episode 37, which dropped two days after my August 5 birthday is my consideration of how to hold sorrow and joy in my heart at exactly the same time. I know I have more life to live…I would love to have lived it fully with my father and oldest son by my side.

I Love You Too, Mom

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Episode 037 – Mindy

“I Love You Too, Mom”

As a young girl, I remember talking with friends at a sleepover using a paper cup and strings. Fast forward to today and now I listen for the special sound from my phone telling me I’ve received a text from my younger son, Lukas. The COVID-19 Pandemic has most definitely grabbed our attention with regard to the importance of staying in communication with loved ones. While physical touch and in-person communication are best, I will take what I can get when a yellow butterfly finds me.

You see, my oldest son, Reat, and my father started communicating with me from Heaven within one week of their murders in 2014. Initially and still today, yellow butterflies find me – everywhere. On one difficult day in 2018, two deer stood in my backyard as if to say “goodbye” as we left our home of 13 years. I labeled Reat and Dad’s communication with me as “messages” and enjoy documenting them often.

Another caveat to episode 37, which dropped two days after my August 5 birthday is my consideration of how to hold sorrow and joy in my heart at exactly the same time. I know I have more life to live…I would love to have lived it fully with my father and oldest son by my side.

I’ve learned when the sorrow creeps into my heart, I have to allow it ample time to settle and simmer. This is the part that sucks. Feeling grief, physically, and allowing tears to naturally flow releases the pain in my chest. With faith in God and my “messages”, a smile will find its way to my lips, as I recall a good memory…hearing Reat tell me, “I love you too, Mom.”

A memory that will last a lifetime.